One minute everything seemed fine--I felt well, was staying busy doing the things I love--sewing, quilting, and being with my husband. I have had my share of serious bouts of illness--staph infections that had me in the hospital--suffering through the hard recovery and making it one day at a time, with God's loving Grace.
I did not know what lay around the corner for me--within hours of feeling so good and then finding myself in the back of an ambulance--rushing to the hospital! My memory from there on is very fuzzy~~but I have a vivid recollection of sitting in my chair and suddenly uttering these words---
'Lord-its been a long time since I was really sick--I sure hope it does NOT happen again but if it does, PLEASE watch over me and help me recover from it.!!"
Asking for Prayers--before I knew what lay ahead frightened me for a few seconds but I leaned hard on my faith and felt all was fine. Hours later I woke my husband and he knew something was seriously wrong with me.
I believe when we pray, our words are HEARD and my heart tells me HE was right beside me all the way and will continue seeing me through the long road to recovery. My body feels as if it was run over by a Train--and recovery is NOT easy. Yet I am so thankful to be here, and I do
lift my heart in major Thanksgiving to The Lord....
martha
Pain Won't Beat Me!
Looking Past the Pain for Joy!
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Friday, February 14, 2014
Being Grateful on this Day.....
The Best Blessing of my life~~~
I know its Valentines Day~~ a time of romance, flowers,candy,flowers~~~Cards expressing Love and Care for each other, but for me~~it is truly a day of being Grateful in so many ways! As I reflect back over the years and all the major Health Scares I had~~I give THANKS to the LORD for my still being here--alive and able to laugh, cry, fuss, and simply be with my fantastic Husband!
We met the 2nd weekend of Sept. 1973~~~yes, I know there are much younger ones out there who see that year and think--"When was that, and Wow, she must be really OLD!" Well, yes we are both Older, but when I pause and go back to the exact moment we met----it seems like just a few moments ago, as I was with a group of High School Girl pals and walking through the grounds of a large Chili Cookoff. One of them mentioned something about 'Look at that bunch of good-looking guys over there" and when I turned--there He was!!
They were a bit cautious about walking up to meet these guys and all I could say was, "I would really like a sample of Chili" and off I went. Of course there He was when I walked up to ask for a sample of Chili and we started talking~~as if we had known each other forever. Two hours passed and it was time for me to re-connect with my friends, I gave him the phone number of where I was staying and we both agreed to see each other at a dance planned later that night.
The dance came and went-I never saw him and got up early the next morning, heading back home. My friends told me later they had a very "early morning" phone call from some guy who was looking for me!! He finally convinced them of who he was and they gave him my home number.
I recall my Mom asking me about my weekend and I told her "I met this guy, very nice and he had the happiest SMILE I had ever seen!" She listened quietly, said nothing and within a couple of hours, the phone rang and YAHOO--it was Matt!! We arranged to go out the following weekend and as our first date came to a close, I asked him "Why did you want to go out with me?" He looked at me, no stumble-just complete assurance and said, " Cause I think I love you!"
We dated for 1 1/2 years--he proposed to me on Christmas Eve, 1974 and we married on April 26th, 1975!! My Mom told me shortly after we met that she knew I had met the man I would spend the rest of my Life with!
I don't feel our meeting was an accident~~~about three weeks before I met Matt,one day I put my head down and went to The Lord in prayer---I asked him to "Please" bring me a Man who would Love me for the person I am, someone who would respect me and Love me Forever........
My Prayer was answered.....I hope we grow very Old together, and I could not begin to imagine my Life without him.......
Blessings to all on this day...
martha
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Surfing the Internet~~Learning about C5/C6 Neck Disc!!!
With our high-tech world today--finding information on any subject is a few simple key strokes away and we stumble into a 'Pandora's box" of data and suddenly we are in over-load mode! There were lots of "success stories" and I found a big list of "symptoms" which helped me understand why I am having these strange new Aches and Pains.
Then I stumbled across page after page of "nightmare stories" where people had tried every possible procedure, medicine, holistic treatments, surgery~~Nothing had worked for them and their lives evolve around PAIN every single day.
My husband saw me pushing the OFF button of my computer and sitting with a blank stare~~he knew something was up--"So have you been researching tonight?" I just looked at him and said "Big Mistake to search about my Neck--BIG Mistake!"
Silence filled the space between us~~~my husband waited patiently for me to find my way--- I slowly looked up and said~~
"Lord---please help me, please give me the strength and courage to get through the Pain!"
I knew "where" to search for my answer...........
I pray for all the people who are suffering with Pain...... You are not alone........ martha
Then I stumbled across page after page of "nightmare stories" where people had tried every possible procedure, medicine, holistic treatments, surgery~~Nothing had worked for them and their lives evolve around PAIN every single day.
My husband saw me pushing the OFF button of my computer and sitting with a blank stare~~he knew something was up--"So have you been researching tonight?" I just looked at him and said "Big Mistake to search about my Neck--BIG Mistake!"
Silence filled the space between us~~~my husband waited patiently for me to find my way--- I slowly looked up and said~~
"Lord---please help me, please give me the strength and courage to get through the Pain!"
I knew "where" to search for my answer...........
I pray for all the people who are suffering with Pain...... You are not alone........ martha
Monday, January 27, 2014
Here we come again!
Time for another Neck Injection today~~~we arrive at Clinic in the dark of morning- pick out a good seat and the doors keep opening, one after another is coming for relief of their Pain. We find our seats and wait for our turn to go through the doors leading to the Procedure Area.
The people who work at a Pain Clinic seem to all have a set of "invisible Angel Wings" as they treat all with an extra load of kindness, concern, dignity and Hope~~~as we each are rolled away for our time with the Needle, you can feel them saying a silent word of Prayer for each of us, hoping the next time they see us--perhaps the Pain will not be so bad.
Even as we are rolled out of the facility to our waiting loved ones--we are sent away with a good wish "Hope you feel better soon!"
We all hope to Feel better 'Soon."
Martha
The people who work at a Pain Clinic seem to all have a set of "invisible Angel Wings" as they treat all with an extra load of kindness, concern, dignity and Hope~~~as we each are rolled away for our time with the Needle, you can feel them saying a silent word of Prayer for each of us, hoping the next time they see us--perhaps the Pain will not be so bad.
Even as we are rolled out of the facility to our waiting loved ones--we are sent away with a good wish "Hope you feel better soon!"
We all hope to Feel better 'Soon."
Martha
Thursday, January 23, 2014
A sleepless Night~~~
I can hear the steady ticking of my Grandma's old Mantle Clock~~the half hour sound gongs as I recall how aged the clock is--over 75 years of ticking, only needing the required Winding every eight days. It was a delight to watch my Granny slowly wind it up-and I dreamed there might come a day when the Clock would belong to me!
Yet I never dreamed how comforting the ticking sound would become as I find myself sitting here in the wee hours of the morning--my husband sleeping peacefully and I am waiting for the next major Weather change--PAIN is barking at me, legs and feet are aching--Neck is starting to get my attention---nothing to do but wait.
I could get Angry and inwardly Rage about Pain~~been there, done it and the results are never Good! Pain dictates my life in many ways~~~at first I fought the changes like a Tiger--but years of battling against Pain has taught Hard lessons, and I am fully aware of the respect I must grudgingly give to this Pain.
The Clock ticks away and I know~~God is here with me, giving me gentle assurance of HIS love!
I know there are others who are hurting--Pain has pulled them from needed Sleep and they walk the floor, wishing Pain would just go away. HE is with them too.
martha
Yet I never dreamed how comforting the ticking sound would become as I find myself sitting here in the wee hours of the morning--my husband sleeping peacefully and I am waiting for the next major Weather change--PAIN is barking at me, legs and feet are aching--Neck is starting to get my attention---nothing to do but wait.
I could get Angry and inwardly Rage about Pain~~been there, done it and the results are never Good! Pain dictates my life in many ways~~~at first I fought the changes like a Tiger--but years of battling against Pain has taught Hard lessons, and I am fully aware of the respect I must grudgingly give to this Pain.
The Clock ticks away and I know~~God is here with me, giving me gentle assurance of HIS love!
I know there are others who are hurting--Pain has pulled them from needed Sleep and they walk the floor, wishing Pain would just go away. HE is with them too.
martha
Sunday, January 12, 2014
New Pain stopped me Cold!!
I haven't posted on my blog for a while now~~~sadly the reason is More Chronic Pain came into my life and it did stop me Cold! The words have felt "Stuck" inside me~~normally I would be frustrated about this and push myself to find the words, but the New Pain is literally a Pain in the Neck and it hurts a hundred times more than my usual Sciatica Pain that stays with me every single day.
So here I am--back at my Blog and trying to get "Going' again~~as this New Pain hangs around, I am learning new lessons about coping with More Pain in my life~~things like its okay to give myself permission to relax more, have less stress, don't fret so much!
Its not easy to struggle with more Pain in my Life---but I look around me and know that I am very blessed in so many ways~~and this is what helps me to keep pushing, don't let Pain be the only thing about me.
Wow~~I did it!! God be with each of you and know you are in my prayers...
martha
So here I am--back at my Blog and trying to get "Going' again~~as this New Pain hangs around, I am learning new lessons about coping with More Pain in my life~~things like its okay to give myself permission to relax more, have less stress, don't fret so much!
Its not easy to struggle with more Pain in my Life---but I look around me and know that I am very blessed in so many ways~~and this is what helps me to keep pushing, don't let Pain be the only thing about me.
Wow~~I did it!! God be with each of you and know you are in my prayers...
martha
Thursday, December 19, 2013
The Other Side of Holidays~~~
Christmas is probably the biggest Holiday of the Year~~lets face it, Promotions start in September as stores start showing all the Glitter and Shine, and when we see these "early Christmas signs" I would swear there comes a collective "How will I get through this Holiday?"
People start to worry about the costs of gifts-money they might not have, children they will let down if that "perfect Tree with tons of Gifts" is not waiting on Christmas morning--while family relations are churning all around them.
Christmas brings a load of emotions toward us~~~Bells Ringing, Christmas Carols sung non-stop, the struggle through shopping lines, watching the cash register soaring upwards, stopping to wait for that "fast Credit Card Swipe" bringing more worry while nervous Store Clerks say a "Happy Holidays" greeting, hoping the customer will just move on and not insist on saying "Merry Christmas!" Why should a clerk live in fear of losing their job by saying those two words, "Merry Christmas?"
Worry, anger, sadness, frustration, helplessness--the list sadly goes on as to the range of emotions flying around as this holiday rapidly approaches us. There is no magic cure--people must find their way through this time, and the statistics of Violence around this time of year are rising at an alarming rate.
What can be done to change the "Commercial Christmas?" Its not that easy but there is a way to start~~~PRAYER. Remember the Christmas story~~a BABY was born in a manger, surrounded by animals, shepherds stood still, Three Wise Men arrived with Gifts for the child. They called him Jesus...................
May your Christmas find moments of Peace. God bless everyone.
martha
People start to worry about the costs of gifts-money they might not have, children they will let down if that "perfect Tree with tons of Gifts" is not waiting on Christmas morning--while family relations are churning all around them.
Christmas brings a load of emotions toward us~~~Bells Ringing, Christmas Carols sung non-stop, the struggle through shopping lines, watching the cash register soaring upwards, stopping to wait for that "fast Credit Card Swipe" bringing more worry while nervous Store Clerks say a "Happy Holidays" greeting, hoping the customer will just move on and not insist on saying "Merry Christmas!" Why should a clerk live in fear of losing their job by saying those two words, "Merry Christmas?"
Worry, anger, sadness, frustration, helplessness--the list sadly goes on as to the range of emotions flying around as this holiday rapidly approaches us. There is no magic cure--people must find their way through this time, and the statistics of Violence around this time of year are rising at an alarming rate.
What can be done to change the "Commercial Christmas?" Its not that easy but there is a way to start~~~PRAYER. Remember the Christmas story~~a BABY was born in a manger, surrounded by animals, shepherds stood still, Three Wise Men arrived with Gifts for the child. They called him Jesus...................
May your Christmas find moments of Peace. God bless everyone.
martha
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