Asking for HELP--before we even know its needed.......

One minute everything seemed fine--I felt well, was staying busy doing the things I  love--sewing, quilting, and being with my husband.    I have had my  share of  serious bouts  of illness--staph infections  that had me in the hospital--suffering through the hard recovery and  making it one day at a time, with God's loving Grace.

I did not  know what lay around the corner for me--within hours of  feeling so good and then finding myself in the back of  an ambulance--rushing to the hospital!  My memory from there on is very fuzzy~~but I  have a vivid  recollection of sitting in my chair  and suddenly uttering these words---
'Lord-its been a long time since I was really sick--I sure hope it does  NOT happen again but if  it does, PLEASE watch over me  and help me recover from it.!!" 

Asking for Prayers--before  I knew what lay ahead frightened me for  a few  seconds but I  leaned hard on my faith and felt all  was fine.   Hours later I  woke my husband and he knew something was seriously wrong with me.

I believe when we pray, our  words are HEARD and my heart tells me HE was right beside me all the way and will continue seeing me through the long road to recovery.  My body feels as if it was run over by a  Train--and recovery  is NOT easy.   Yet I am so thankful to be here, and I do 
lift my heart in major Thanksgiving to The Lord....

martha

Being Grateful on this Day.....

The Best Blessing of my life~~~

I know its Valentines Day~~ a time of romance, flowers,candy,flowers~~~Cards expressing Love and   Care for each other, but for me~~it is truly a day of being Grateful in so many ways!  As I reflect  back over the years and all the major Health Scares I had~~I give THANKS to the LORD for my still being here--alive and able to laugh, cry, fuss, and simply be with my fantastic Husband!

We met  the 2nd weekend of Sept. 1973~~~yes, I know there are much younger ones out there  who see that year and think--"When was that, and Wow, she must be really OLD!"     Well, yes we are both Older, but when I pause and go back to the exact moment we met----it seems like just a few  moments  ago, as I was with a group of  High School Girl  pals and walking through the grounds  of a large Chili  Cookoff.  One of them mentioned something about 'Look  at that bunch of  good-looking guys  over there"  and when I turned--there He was!!

They were a bit cautious about walking up to meet these guys and all I could  say was, "I  would really like a sample  of Chili"  and off I went.  Of  course there He  was when I  walked up to ask for  a sample of  Chili and we started talking~~as if  we had known each other forever.   Two hours  passed  and it was time for me to  re-connect with my friends, I gave him  the phone number of where  I was  staying and we  both agreed to see each other at a dance planned later that night.

The  dance came and went-I never saw him and got up  early the next morning,  heading back home.  My  friends told me later they had a very "early morning"  phone call from some guy who was looking for me!!  He finally convinced them  of who he  was  and  they gave him my home  number.

I recall  my Mom asking me about my weekend and I  told her "I met this guy, very nice  and he had the happiest SMILE  I  had ever seen!"   She listened quietly, said  nothing and within a couple  of hours, the phone rang and YAHOO--it was Matt!!  We arranged to go  out the following weekend and as our  first  date came to  a  close,  I  asked him  "Why did you want to go  out  with me?"  He looked at me, no stumble-just complete assurance and said, " Cause I  think I love  you!"

We dated for 1 1/2 years--he proposed  to me on Christmas Eve,  1974 and we married  on April 26th, 1975!!   My Mom told  me shortly after we met that she knew  I  had  met  the man I  would  spend  the  rest  of  my Life  with!

I don't feel  our  meeting was an  accident~~~about three weeks before I met Matt,one day I put  my head  down and went to The Lord in prayer---I asked him to "Please"  bring me a Man who would Love me for the person I am,  someone who would  respect  me  and Love  me Forever........

My Prayer was  answered.....I hope  we  grow  very Old  together, and I could not begin to  imagine  my Life  without him.......   

Blessings to all on this day... 

martha

Surfing the Internet~~Learning about C5/C6 Neck Disc!!!

 With our high-tech world today--finding information on any subject  is a few simple key strokes away and we stumble into a  'Pandora's box" of data and suddenly we are in over-load mode!     There were lots of "success stories" and I found a big list of  "symptoms" which helped me understand why I am having these strange new Aches and Pains.

Then I stumbled  across page after page of "nightmare stories" where people had tried every possible  procedure,  medicine, holistic treatments, surgery~~Nothing had worked for them and  their lives evolve  around PAIN every single  day.   

My husband  saw me pushing the OFF button of  my computer and sitting with a blank  stare~~he knew something was up--"So have  you been researching tonight?"   I just looked at him and said "Big Mistake to search about my Neck--BIG Mistake!"

Silence  filled the space between us~~~my husband waited patiently for me to find my way--- I slowly looked up  and said~~

"Lord---please help me, please give me the strength and courage to get through the Pain!"

I knew "where" to search for my answer...........

I pray for all the people who are suffering with Pain...... You are not alone........    martha

Here we come again!

Time for another Neck Injection today~~~we arrive at Clinic in the dark of morning- pick  out  a  good seat and the doors keep opening,  one after another is coming for relief of their  Pain. We find our seats and wait for our turn  to go through the doors leading to the Procedure Area.

The people who work at a Pain Clinic seem to all have a set of "invisible Angel Wings" as they treat all with an extra load of kindness, concern, dignity and Hope~~~as we each are rolled away for our time with the Needle, you can feel them saying a silent word of Prayer for each of us, hoping the next time  they see us--perhaps the Pain will not be so bad.

Even as we are rolled out of  the facility to our waiting loved  ones--we are  sent away with a good  wish "Hope you feel better soon!"   

We all hope to Feel better 'Soon."

Martha

A sleepless Night~~~

I can hear the steady ticking of my Grandma's old  Mantle Clock~~the half  hour  sound gongs as I recall how  aged the clock  is--over 75 years  of ticking, only needing  the required Winding  every eight days.   It  was  a delight to watch my Granny slowly wind it  up-and I dreamed there might come a day when the Clock would  belong  to me!    

Yet  I never dreamed how comforting the ticking sound would become as I find myself sitting here in the wee hours  of  the morning--my husband sleeping peacefully and I am waiting for the next major Weather change--PAIN is barking at me, legs  and feet are aching--Neck  is  starting to get my attention---nothing to do but wait.

I could get Angry and inwardly Rage about Pain~~been there, done it and the results  are never Good!  Pain dictates my life  in many ways~~~at first  I  fought the changes  like a  Tiger--but years of battling against Pain has taught Hard lessons, and I  am fully aware of the respect  I  must  grudgingly give to this Pain.

The Clock ticks away and I know~~God is here with me, giving me gentle assurance of  HIS love! 

I know there are others who are hurting--Pain has pulled them from needed Sleep and they walk the floor, wishing Pain would  just go  away.   HE is with them too.   

martha

New Pain stopped me Cold!!

I haven't posted  on my blog for  a while  now~~~sadly the reason is  More  Chronic Pain came into my life and it did stop me Cold!   The words have felt "Stuck" inside me~~normally I would be frustrated about this and push myself to  find the words, but the New Pain is  literally a Pain in the Neck and it hurts  a hundred times more than my usual Sciatica Pain that stays with me every single day.

So here I am--back at my Blog and trying to get "Going'  again~~as this New Pain hangs around, I  am learning new lessons about coping with More Pain in my life~~things like its okay to give myself permission to relax more, have less stress, don't fret so much!

Its not easy to struggle  with more  Pain in my Life---but I look around me and know that I am very blessed in so many ways~~and this is what helps  me to keep pushing, don't let Pain be the only thing about me.

Wow~~I did it!!  God be with each of you and know you are in my prayers...

martha

The Other Side of Holidays~~~

Christmas is probably the biggest Holiday of the Year~~lets face it, Promotions start in September as stores start showing all the Glitter and Shine, and when we see these "early Christmas signs" I would swear there comes a collective "How will I get through this Holiday?"

People start to worry about the costs of gifts-money they might not have, children they will let down if that "perfect Tree with tons of Gifts" is not waiting on Christmas morning--while  family relations are churning all around them.

 Christmas brings a load of emotions toward us~~~Bells Ringing, Christmas Carols sung non-stop, the struggle  through shopping lines, watching the cash register soaring upwards, stopping to wait for that "fast Credit Card Swipe" bringing more worry while nervous  Store Clerks say a  "Happy Holidays" greeting,  hoping the customer will just move on and not insist on saying "Merry Christmas!"  Why should a clerk live in fear of  losing their job by saying those  two words, "Merry Christmas?"

Worry, anger, sadness, frustration, helplessness--the list sadly goes on as to the range of emotions flying around as this holiday rapidly approaches us.  There is no magic cure--people must find their way through this time, and the statistics of Violence around this time of  year are rising at an alarming rate.  

What can be done to change the "Commercial Christmas?"  Its not that easy but there is a way to start~~~PRAYER.  Remember the Christmas story~~a BABY was born in a manger, surrounded by animals, shepherds stood still, Three Wise Men arrived with Gifts for the child.  They called him  Jesus...................

May your Christmas find moments of Peace.  God bless everyone.  
martha

Finding Something to Enjoy....

Cold weather comes and I keep thinking---is there any place  to  hide from the Pain that comes with these  crazy weather changes?   The answer comes swift--no place to hide, just have to ride it out and wait for the Sunshine to peek its beautiful rays out again.   

Who feels like doing anything when your body is throbbing with Pain that simply will not stop hurting?   I can rise quickly to anger-snapping at my husband for no reason, apologizing over and over for being so irritable.   During the past few months we have both talked about how I need a 
"New Project" to occupy my mind as  I cope  with the ups  and downs of Chronic Pain.   

I verbally agreed with him but silently thought "Give it a rest!  Nothing is going to help my mood  right now, Nothing!"   Its the rut we can all slide into---Pain rising and falling with the Weather, having LONG nights like the one I am having now~~~Sleep seems to hide, I search for something to do besides sit and watch the television (after 2:00am--not much to see on the screen)  and so I reach for my computer keys--hoping the words will help.   

Then I stop and pray~~ "Lord  I thank you for all the blessings you send my way!   If you don't mind, I could  really use some HELP  right now with this miserable Leg Pain!"   I know my prayers are heard--I must find patience for the answer.......

So how would I know there was something just  around the corner that could bring me some wonderful Joy---we had lunch today at one of our Special places to eat--meaning its so much more than a restaurant!   There is a theatre upstairs for out of town Musicians to display their talents, an Art Studio at the end for both young and old artists to learn the joy of putting brush to canvas and see what comes to life!   

Today the latest addition almost seemed to "Have my Name on the door" as  I glanced  to see a sign that  read "Textile Studio" ~~something pushed me to go take a look.  My husband was lingering behind, telling me over and over "I don't think this part is opened yet.  Lets wait for another  day to see it" but I never heard his words.  As I stepped into the Studio--it was like a huge Pandora's box of Wall to Wall Fabrics  greeted me!   The  Shelving ran from the floor to the ceiling (very old building--walls are 12 feet high or more)  and I could not take my eyes away from this glorious arrangement of Fabrics!  

Quilts made by others hung in various display--I kept walking and whispered to my husband "Have you ever seen anything like this?"   He wasn't  taking in all the beauty I was seeing--but instead  was standing in silent awe as his wife suddenly was like a young girl--having discovered a beautiful treasure!   A clerk approached me and began explaining how the store was designed and let me know there would be an upcoming Class on learning how to Quilt!

I could not fill the  paperwork  out fast enough--as I knew this was  a place I wanted to see over and over again!  As we got home, my husband told me "You were like a little Girl--I haven't seen that much excitement in you for  a  long time!"   

The classes will start soon and I will be there~~~loving every moment of being surrounded by so much beauty!  Wish me Luck on my First Quilt!

God please be with all the people who are suffering with Pain--bring them comfort!

martha

The "new" Blog Look!

I look at my "New" blog design and it hits me as to why this choice~~the background images reflect Age-the walls are old and show a lot of "wear & tear."  Photos hanging on the wall, showing images of a very different era,  the "Crank Phone" image transports me back to being a very young girl, watching my Grandma giving the phone a few turns, reaching her friends and talking for hours. 

In many ways I feel like  the aged Walls~~~my body carries a ton of aches and pain.   Here I am in the dark of night--while others sleep, I am typing away,  trying to put my frustration with Pain into  words and not having much success with it.

Lately I seem to have a rough edge all around me~~like the old wallpaper,  the wear and tear of a long battle with Pain is showing on me.  I can't erase the awful day when I fell out of a Tree--no changing that fact, instead I must keep tugging at "my bootstraps" and keep moving down the road of life.

Yes, the old walls are a reflection for me as I continue on~~Joy is still out there, just waiting for me to find it.  I refuse to give up...........

God bless all who are suffering.  You are not alone.    

martha

I just can't Decide!

Martha at Five Years old

All dressed up and happy about my Birthday cake~~but my problem was which Candle to start blowing out First!   As I look back, that seems like such a simple issue--I recall how Proud I was to be in my Brand New Dress  Moma had been working hard on so it would be ready for this day!   

Now I fast forward many years later and here I sit, "experimenting" with my BlogDesign--making changes so fast that I can't keep up with them!  One will look fantastic, the next one results in leaving me feeling like  I am in desperate need of  "Design Web Page  for Dummies" book!  

I see other Blog sites and think "Wow,  how did they do that?"  Suddenly it hits me--I can change my Blog look every single day, but  the most important issue is what I share in words.   When I start writing~~for whatever reason, the words come and I let them flow.   Nope-I  am not the best writer in the world--I write from my heart and that will never change.  

Perhaps  that is the key~~~~I am trying to be technical in designing a New Blog look--time to open my heart and see what happens!    Thanks for being patient.......

God Bless.  

Martha

Chronic Pain~~~a Silent Thief

I have a dear friend who suffers with Chronic Pain~~He amazes me with his Silent Dignity in the face of Pain that could easily take the strongest person to the ground.  I can tell how he is doing simply by the sound of  his voice and my heart aches for what he must  endure each day.

Chronic Pain has taken so much from him--simple physical activity  he once cherished  is now changed, each move he takes  is careful and deliberate.  The last  thing he needs is any further  injury to his aching Body.   We check on each other, pray for each other, and lift  each other up in spirit by simple encouraging words "We can Do This~~yes, We Can Get through this Bout of Pain!"   

Tonight I felt Pain approaching my body~~silent, steady--just like a Thief in the Dark.   No place to  run or hide--just ride it out and pray for the Pain to release its grip!  

There are good days for my friend, and for me and countless others who suffer with Chronic Pain, and we give thanks to God for those days!  Its nice when the "Silent Thief" takes a break from our  Pain-weary Bodies.

Last night I prayed  hard for my friend, and asked God for a bit of help for me too!   Its okay to ask HIM for assistance~~HE  knows my Prayers  before the words leave my lips!

I am eternally Thankful for HIS loving Grace..........martha

Oops-I skipped Black Friday Shopping!

Yes its true~~I skipped the biggest shopping day of the year--Black Friday!   As I watched the mid-day news and saw people "brawling" over those "can't  live without Bargains" all I could think was-"Well one  good Shove and I would be on the Ground!"

Why do people get into a physical battle over a small discount on an item?   Do  they truly think a real Bargain is waiting for them?   Maybe its the challenge  of waiting in line for hours, in freezing weather, not thinking about getting a Cold--nothing matters except getting that Bargain  deal.

Shopping is  something I would like to do in a  peaceful manner--but that  usually does not happen!  Black Friday would  be  impossible for me to do  because of the lovely Pain that  follows  me around, day and night.  It hurts to stand for too long a time,  and sitting down--well that is out of the picture.   Things change in life--just that  simple, whether its learning how to live  with Pain,   or a major life event--we either adjust  with the change or  stay in one major struggle.

Life is precious and for this old gal--I  can skip  Black Friday shopping!  Besides I know all the stores are packed  with Christmas, Christmas, Christmas!   Too much, too fast,  and way too Soon.

Take care and hope you find a moment  of simple  Joy.    

Blessings,  Martha

Thanksgiving~~~stirring the Memory Pot.........

I have been away from my Blog~~wish I could say it was something big that took me away from my writing but its not.  Doubts and fear surfaced and I needed time to sort everything out.   Perhaps one thing I needed to learn was to give myself permission in taking a day or  two or three weeks off from writing.   The break has helped and I realized just how very much I miss sharing my thoughts and life with others--its very important to me as I share my journey of living with chronic pain--always hoping I can be of help to others  who must walk this wicked path.  

There are so many things I am truly thankful for  at this  Thanksgiving~~~I thank God for giving me the strength each day to get up and move~~~keep moving and looking for some Joy, regardless of how bad the Pain gets.  Don't get me wrong~~~there are many days when I simply can't do much, and this is when I really Learn to respect  this Pain--my body needs rest and its okay to  "be lazy" when these days arrive.  I am beyond thankful for my  amazing Husband~~~who stands with me,  helps  me through the tough times, holds me during the Sad times, laughs with me at things that seem Funny just to us!  

So how did Thanksgiving "Stir the Memory Pot" so easily?   Simple~~~memories of so many times with family and friends who have passed on.  Remembering my First Thanksgiving as a married woman and having my parents there to enjoy the meal with us.  Thank goodness I managed to cook the Turkey and dressing---recalling our son chewing on a huge Turkey leg as a very young toddler~~pausing on that memory, sadness rising and the realization of knowing this is our life now and we cherish it  just the way it  is.  

We  used a  lot of Pots  today--each  one managed to  bring another memory to the surface and there was much laughter today, as we remembered  that long ago time when it was just the two of us and that was all  we needed.  Today as we prayed before our meal, we felt "our loved ones" watching over us and realized there will always be a "Stirring of the Memory Pot" at times of holidays.   I pray your
Thanksgiving day was peaceful and  happy.  

Thanks for following my Blog and I pray you will drop  in and read my words again.   Martha

I Don't Quit~~

Words  I have  whispered~~clinging to them as Struggles in Life have come my way, I speak them with strong Assurance--a verbal  challenge within me as the words fly  from me~~

"I Don't Quit!"

Where do the words come from?   My Answer is simple--Everything I am,  all the Blessings given to me throughout  my Life come directly from God.   HE  is  my constant Light I  reach for in the darkest  hours  of my  Battle with Pain.   HE shows me Joy in each day  as  I  walk  the path of Life with my "Best Blessing"~~my dear  Husband!  

I  am assured by Faith--knowing God  will never Quit, HIS  love is Constant......

HE is the MASTER  of my LIFE.

Something always happens!

My Dentist must be convinced I am running scared from having more work done on my old Choppers~~not the case in this instance!  Stress has its way of flying at us and at the time, we are so convinced of our coping skills~~but while our minds are in a whirlwind of handling Stress~~the Body is on another course that we are not aware of-Yet!

Just when I finally came up with a solution to the main Stress issue~~Bam!!  I woke up realizing my Body was not the same~~Stress was now screaming at me via my Body and it seems every piece of me hurts.  It dawned on me that during this latest run with Stress~~Food had lost its meaning and my body was letting me know-loud and clear.  I quickly fixed a breakfast fit for a Queen-buttered Biscuits, Fresh Scrambled Eggs, hot Tea and Two Large Glasses of Water.  Within the hour my body began to relax~~as if were saying to me~~ "Okay--now how many times have we been through this together?"  My head hung low--"Too many times--I know, yes I know my mistake!"

Instead of simply looking to the Heavens and saying "Here Lord--this is Too much for me to handle!"  No--I fooled myself into a mess of physical Pain, and will NOT do it again.  Thats when I feel like the Lord says "Oh Martha, Martha--why do you worry so much?"  HE is right.......

Time for Lunch!  I will see my Dentist in two weeks.............

God help us to remember how easy it can be to simply LET GO..............  martha

A Message from a young "Tree Climber!"

We never  know when the chance will arrive for  a "Message" to come our  way~~~giving us a few seconds to turn our brains OFF and allow our EARS to  hear words coming.

It happened to me a  few  days ago as I was shopping and stood at the Checkout Counter.   As the years  have  passed, people  see me with a  walking cane-someone will say "You are  too Young for  one of  those!  What happened  to you?"

I have learned to be brief with my story-"Well  I  fell out of a Tree about 18 years ago, landed Too  hard on my Behind, messed up my Sciatic  Nerve, my Leg hurts  ALL  the time, and the  leg feels  Weak and I use the Cane to help me keep  from falling."

No matter how  many times I say it--everyone around me grows quiet!   I wonder what they are  thinking--as I  hear  a  question "Why were you in a tree?"  My answer is  fast--"I  was cutting a Limb down, but  never  thought  I would have  such a Bad  Fall." 

Silence  lingered-- and suddenly a young voice emerged from the line of shoppers and was standing beside  me.   He looked  up at me, lifting his  arm for  me to see it  wrapped  in a Heavy Cast.  His  words  hit home--"Heh- I broke my Arm when I fell out of  a  tree--boy it  really did hurt!"   

My heart was doing flip-flops~~~knowing how bad his  fall could  have  been-- giving Silent thanks that all he had ended with was this broken arm. But He had more to say---"I  heard you tell that  lady about how you Fell  out of a Tree--does you Leg really hurt All  the  Time?"    

I pushed the Tears down inside me--feeling the need to  answer  this child with honesty.   "Well, yes--you did hear me right--my Leg does  hurt All  the  Time.  You were very lucky to only break  your  arm."
He paused---as if he were storing my words  into his mental memory bank~~~ and he said "Lady--I am Sorry you got  hurt!"

Genuine concern from one so young--he started  to  walk  away, glancing back at me with each step  he  took--I  knew  it was time  for just a few more  words~~~"Heh--how about  we  make a promise  with each other?"   His eyes  grew large--"Yeh---thats  okay!"    I  leaned down and said  "How  about we  both promise to NOT climb a  Tree again?"   His  beautiful face broke  into a  huge  grin for  a second--then he grew silent,  I knew  he  was taking our conversation to  heart.

Almost in exact unison-our words  blended together---"We  promise  to never  Climb up a Tree  again!"    I kept smiling  as  he walked  away,  holding his Mom's  hand and turned to Wave at me.    

This "Message" will  stay in my heart  forever.........  

martha

Can We make Changes?

Sounds like  such an easy thing to do~~change our hairstyle, change the Furniture arrangement, Change how we Dress, Change our Computer  layout~~the list goes on.  But what happens when we are faced with Changes that pulls  at our heart?

Today I received an email from a dear  friend--with heart-breaking news of two wonderful women we both know well are now battling against the C word----CANCER.   One has faced Cancer before~~it arrived in her life like a  Major Storm, attacking her body non-stop.   The Community bonded together~~PRAYER started and never stopped--it felt as if a special Team of  Love  wrapped around her.  We all "Changed"~~~~our Friend having Changed the most!

The other friend is facing Cancer~~just  after  she had to  face  major life Changes~~~~a marriage ending, new-found Love bringing a joyful  Change for a heart so deserving of Love.   Now Cancer has marched in~ She must face Changes never dreamed of--I already can feel  the Community bonding again-PRAYERS from our hearts for Both of these  Women....

Can We  make Changes?  Yes-because  it can fly into our lives  and  leave  us feeling as if everything has been turned upside  down.  There are no simple answers---except one that I turn to with Hope---

Tonight I will PRAY for these two amazing women--asking God to  wrap them both in HIS loving embrace.   

martha

What can we do when Nothing makes Pain go Away?

 Its different for each person who lives with Pain~~~meaning we all have our "Pain Habits" in which we reach out to, a way of Wrapping our  Pain up  and hoping against hope  it will simply  go away!

The list of "Comfort items" can go like this~~ Heating Pads everywhere, Special Pillow, our Favorite Comforter/Quilt to keep us warm, a cup of Steaming Hot  Tea, and Favorite old Shows from years ago that we have recorded on our TV, and last but not least--pajamas or Sweat Shirt that top off  our list of needed items for hopeful  Pain relief.

I have my regular  routine of  getting comfortable  when Pain is  throbbing and its definitely a  way of letting people know--"I need to just slip  away today, so please let me sit and do nothing at all."  Yes  all of  these  things serve to help comfort me when I am hurting~~~but as I go through the roughest moments of Pain--I am PRAYING!  Sometimes all I can say is "Help  Me Please"   and my  words grow in desperation as I  find the words  coming out  during the long dark hours of the night--"Please God,  Please  help me get through this."   

Before I  know it, time  has passed and the Pain has settled down to a slow hum--but I know there will be  more rough nights ahead~~~it seems to just go with the territory.    I just looked out the window~~Seems like another Weather System is coming in!   Best  go  gather all my "Comfort Items" up and settle in for the evening.

I pray for HIS loving hand to hold me up.   As the words flow from my lips, I feel a "peace" settle  round me,  and I know this too shall pass.    

martha

Finding moments of Freedom from Pain~

Okay-let me make it simple~~~you have to hunt HARD to find moments of  relief from non-stop Pain.   Its not an easy thing to do~~people get fed up with hearing my complaints and it  gets worse as my Bad  mood grows from having one day stacked  upon another day as Pain Sits parked in my butt, legs and feet......

It is exhausting to have constant Pain----all I want is for the Pain to STOP!!   Cease and desist for a while so  I can recall what it did feel like to NOT hurt all the time. So many things will cause Pain levels to rise~~~extra Stress, lack of Sleep, Weather Changes,~~~~sometimes it feels like the Pain comes marching in for no reason at all......

I  do not find many moments of Freedom from Pain~~~~no matter how hard I try to make it go away.  So I keep taking a deep breath of air, square my shoulders and keep fighting back against this wicked foe.    Thats not Freedom--nope, thats what I call HARD work..

Time to pray--asking God to please bring relief to all the areas of my body that are screaming for help.   HE hears me, I know that is certain.

Hanging in, hanging on and Hoping.....martha

Please watch over all the people who are hurting and hoping for Freedom from their Pain.....

Going Back in time~~~

Dripping Springs Drill Team Captain

"Martha"

Well I must travel back in time to remember there was a day when I really could "Kick" my Leg almost over my head!  It was a fun time and we all thought our Team was the best!