Its the "simple" things that bring instant frustration--in simple terms, the list of things I can't do seems to keep growing, it just adds to the pile of stressed out nerves from Pain levels soaring off my 1-10 Chart --because of a long run of Weather changes across the country~~~~~I am MAD! Mother Nature wreaked wicked havoc around the country--and my body screamed with Pain each day--even though the weather was hundreds of miles away. Anger seemed to grow with the Pain and nothing would make it go away.
Add to the daily grind of Chronic Pain--Matt suddenly is puttering around the house with My walker~~~early morning call to his Orthopedic Doctor tells us what we already know--he has fluid back on his knee. Recurring problem from surgery, over-doing it, and that lovely thing we call Age!!
When things are not good in Matt's part of our world--my focus is constantly on him as I offer advice from my long years in Pain (hits me fast--I am not a Doctor) and I settle down to give Matt his time and try to get a grip on "fussing over him" as I am bringing water, snack, magazines~~~~when Matt gets my attention and lets me know "Heh, its just my Knee!" All I can think is how much I love this wonderful man and wish I could fix his knee--home surgery came to mind---Nope, not a good idea!!
Pain Territory is filled with so many ups and downs~~~emotions can run high if I let them--but I am reminded as to how Pain can rise in the body when a person is churning with emotion! Time to push everything I am feeling to the side, take a long deep breath and get ready for the next step!
I take a long slow breath of air--look outside to take a drink of the beauty around us and tell myself-- "Martha--You Can Do This, I am with You!" Blessings to all of you. Martha
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