He tells me "I can hear you snoring" but I can't be asleep---the Fire Department hasn't arrived yet to put the flames out! Not to worry, its not the house~~just me and my leg, feet and the old buttock, sizzling away and driving me to distraction!!
Why complain about it? He has heard the same words a thousand times~I have felt this burn for many years now and one would think "So what is the problem?" The answer comes easy--"I can't remember what it feels like to be Pain Free- Normal!"
So I continue my Late Night Shuffle~~moving from room to room, falling asleep for a few minutes in my chair, waking quickly as my glasses slide off my face and the Burning Pain has been on Idle--just waiting for me to wake and join in on what feels like a "Continuous Torture Session." This is where I dig deep for help, putting me to the side and Think~~~~
I think about all the others who endure the same Burning Pain~~wondering how they cope with their wicked Pain. As I shuffle off to bed, my heart quickly aches~~~~its as if I can feel the countless faces in this world who face a life filled with Chronic Pain, how I would love to help them--and take their Pain away! Yes--I would then beg them " please lend some hands if you don't mind and make my Pain leave!" The image fills me with warmth as I know Chronic Pain People would leap over tall buildings to help relieve the suffering of another "member of the Pain Club!"
It would be easy to lose Hope-but all I need is right here-as I ask God to watch over all those who are suffering, as I sense a Guiding Hand to help me make it through another Late Night Shuffle.
martha
I don't understand how you endure the suffering, day after day after day, night after night after night.... I--and so many in your life who love you--wish so very much that we could take away all your pain. Forever! You handle your pain with a lot of grace, Martha. You do! Honest! Love you, sheryl
ReplyDeleteSheryl-
ReplyDeleteYour words are genuine and mean so much to me. I don't know about handling this much Pain with Grace as you say--but its a wonderful compliment and gives me a little boost~~~and takes me through the next round of Pain.
God truly blessed me with such a loving friend in my life-
Hello my friend, it sound like the injection did not help for long, sorry. I thought about you last night for my sciatic was acting up just because I have been doing more then normal. My daughter and her family are home from the mission field and staying with us so things have been busy and out of the normal. I am back to taking something to help me sleep or else I would be doing much worst. We head out in two days for a four day trip to Missouri in a seven passenger Honda Pilot...pray I don't forget my pain pills. Sitting for long periods is the worst for me. Thank God we are flying back even though I love being with my kids.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Sheryl, you do handle your pain well. It's a testimony to others. Thanks for always posting words of encouragement. Love Betty
Hi Betty~~
ReplyDeleteYou are enjoying having family around you and that wicked Sciatica decides to grab you--let me at it,I will give it a "talking to!" Then it would hit me--"OMG--I forgot,,,Sciatica knows my address all too well-guess I had better run like the dickens!"
The Neck nerves I had burned have been AMAZING--its wonderful!! But I recalled my doctor telling me "Oh that butt,leg,foot burning-hang in there because its going to come roaring back!" When I asked WHY--she said "The body can tolerate only so much Pain--so one area will settle down, waiting the other Pain out" and man--was she on target or what!!!
If I could send you any helpful advice--STOP the vehicle, get out and walk around for a few moments. It doesn't cure it--but helps some. People will tell me I do handle the Pain--I tell them to see what its like to spend a night at my house!!! You, Sheryl,all the COF and other precious friends help me with kind and loving words like these you send me, and I want you to know "THEY HELP ME" and I am so
thankful for your loving support and prayers..
I was to see my Doctor this past monday--got to her door and found out she was ill and not coming in. There were so many people coming in and hearing the same news--Nobody got MAD! Thats how wonderful my doctor is. We all took a deep gulp of air--knowing RELIEF was not coming our way and re-scheduled our appointment.... I see her on the 17th and will be giving her a HUGE hug...
Hang in there Betty----treasure your family and know I hold you in my heart, hoping the trip will not take everything out of you.... love my friend. martha