I Thought it was a Good Idea~~~~~

Living with Chronic Pain is rough-no doubting that fact, but there can be humor that comes when you least expect it.  I don't feel like cooking-and I thank the Lord my dear husband is willing to step into the kitchen so we do not starve!  Last night for a brief period-I suddenly felt like putting a meal together and managed to do it without making the Pain in my neck get mad and keep me up all night.  Everything came out fine-I kept asking my husband "are you sure its all done, does it taste okay?"  He looked at me and said "Now I think these repeated questions might be showing up because it Has been a while since you cooked-but trust me dear Wife-Its fine and I am proud of you!"

It was music to my ears, a brief feeling of normalcy again but later as I headed for bed, my Neck made sure to send a reminder with extra Pain kicking in.  There it is-frustration and pride all mixed together!  I get upset because I have to stop and think before I act~~something I never had to worry about until the Bulging Disc showed up-so I keep learning how to adjust.

My husband will be the first to tell anybody that when Martha gets on a roll~~just step aside and let her go, because my determination to accomplish a task is strong~~ being able to cook a meal stirred old memories of being in the kitchen, cooking up a storm and having fun!  Tonight I had a bright idea to make a desert for us-I just knew no assistance would be required from my husband.

He is watching television as I am pulling all the ingredients together-recipe in hand~~as I forgot about reaching up, grabbing the items I needed.  Pain waited to get my attention~~~my glasses were in another room and as I picked them up, a Wave of Pain  hit as if a Knife was stuck between my shoulder blades!
I will not deny it~~my pride falling one more time because of Pain.

Somehow I think my husband was quietly waiting-to give me every chance to do something normal and yet
worried of what could happen. Before I rounded the corner, he has a gentle smile on his handsome face and says "So-how about some help with making that desert?"  We both walk to the kitchen as I am babbling away as to how I just knew this was something I could do on my own~~~but Pain has its grasp on my neck and there is no getting around that.

We had FUN tonight as the dish was made and now it will be a late night sampling of our creation.  All of this journey is a learning process~~~so yes, I think it was a Great Idea to make Desert tonight.  Without any doubt, I can say this was my great Joy moment for this day.

It is one step at a time when living with Pain--but keep looking up and know I am praying for all who are suffering-I ask God to help you find a moment or two of relief.  Please say One prayer for me too.

God bless you.

Martha