Sleep feels like an elusive stranger to me~~moments come where I can grab hold of some Sleep and my body is able to rest. I look back at all the years of Chronic Pain, and realize my view of a full night's Sleep is much different than others. My husband is sleeping peacefully in our room, I have learned how to ease out of bed, being careful not to wake him up. I do pause and look at him~~~thats when it hits--
"So that's what SLEEP looks like~~Lucky Guy!"
I walk into the kitchen, trying to find my way for a glass of water~~suddenly the lights come on and I hear that familiar voice~~~"So-you can't sleep either--how about I stay up too!"
My heart swells with love--knowing I am not alone and we will find our way through this journey, together!
God be with all who suffer with Physical Pain. Martha
What a kind man you are married to Martha. I think of all who suffer alone...so glad I got my husband...it helps make a trial easier. Sweet post.
ReplyDeleteYes Betty-
DeleteIt does help to know your "other half" is right beside you, and will not walk away from us, but will stand with us--no matter how hard the battle gets... Thanks for the kind words!
Lets see-Current Sleep Status here in my "neck of the woods"~ 3 hours!!! Heh, it beats the previous night's record......
I send you my Love and Hugs!! martha
I hear you sister, it was around 4:30 am this morning I finally got to sleep, slept in till nine though. I just told Ace, please get me up earlier, by the time I have my tea, breakfast it's time for lunch. I am a slow mover anymore. Blessings
ReplyDeleteOh No Betty--
Deletemy lack of sleep is spreading!!!! I feel for you dear friend. I had to attend a meeting this week, it started at 7:30am--lucky for me, I had been up the entire night!! After the meeting, a man came up and asked "Martha-how are you doing this? Nobody could ever guess the small amount of sleep you live on!" He then said I needed to go home and sleep for hours. A piece of me wanted to yell "Okay--you show me HOW to make the Pain go away so I can Sleep!"
Instead--I looked at him, nothing could hide the exhaustion on my face~~~"You have no idea how much I would like to do that--SLEEP. Pain pushes Sleep away--and I have to find the inner strength to go on." Time seemed to stop for a few seconds-- he ventured further-- "How do you find that strength?" I smiled and pointed my finger upward-- "HE gives it to me--by HIS grace I will get through this."
I had to add just a tad bit of humor--- "Excuse me--Who are you?" Betty- I cracked up, we both laughed and he told me "Martha--you are something else..."
Humor,tears,Pain--and yes--anger too---all of these emotions are me--but I would be nothing without HIM beside me..... All my love dear Betty. martha