Well this is a big diving off point to start at~~ Pain is a force like non other and it does Not like changes that might diminish the daily havoc wreaked on a person's body, mind, and soul. I have seen suffering up close~~ its not a pretty thing to see. Nothing about Pain is glamorous or exciting~ the tiny victories I gain do not give me time to shout Good News out among friends- by the time I would start buzzing computer lines with my news, Pain comes roaring back to my ravaged leg~~pulling, burning, tingling, numb to the bone-all physical issues I must face daily.
After so many long years with Pain beside me~ I am slowly learning the importance of that word Change,
and I am hit with an awareness I might have the "Change Pain Thought" going in the wrong direction. Nothing will change the Sciatic Nerve in my leg that was crushed from the Tree fall, long years of a Nerve
wrapped with Scar Tissue that is firmly planted~~seeming to dare any surgeon who struggled to remove a mass of Scar Tissue looking like a crazy mess of Super Glue!
Change must come from me~~~ Not an easy challenge-we stumble each day as we try to find our way in this journey with Chronic Pain. Some might say my options are limited~ I do not agree~~ In my darkest hours of walking the floor with Pain, calling for His helping hand, there is a moment of Change! I chose to look past the wicked Pain and lean on Faith.
It would be wonderful to say Pain changes in a second~~ but a gradual change comes~~
it is gentle, silent~~and I find peace to reach for sleep. Nothing is perfect~~ but if I work
with the Pain~~ not Against it~~ I know beyond any doubt I can cope, come rain or shine. There are moments when I glance up and see my motto-as a sudden urge hits me to give these words a thrashing,
but I stop because God's love is written in these simple words~~
~~~~~~~Pain Won't Beat Me~~~~~~~
I keep going, taking it one day at a time and think of others who are suffering~ my prayers are with you.
Martha
Wow--such powerful thought! And, YES! I too have been lead by the Lord to recognize that, although my pain continues to roar, I CAN BE ChANGED for the better--better able to appreciate the beauty around me; better able to see and help those who suffer, and better able to connect with Him.
ReplyDeleteOne of my questions to people I counsel is: "Are you a chronically-in-pain person" OR a person who has chronic pain? " The way we look at it makes all the difference!
Thank you for your vision, and your beautiful expressions of thought!
Judi
Judi~~
DeleteYour words just added so much DEPTH~~~ especially these Four amazing words that speak Volumes~~~ I CAN BE CHANGED...... It has taken
years of me sometimes feeling the urge to "beat my head against the wall" as I try to continue coping with my Pain.
Yet in those moments~~ as I calm down, literally praying my way back to peace and understanding~~~ There comes the lesson of CHANGE.
It will never be easy~~ but its worth the effort.
Thank you for bringing an even greater understanding of Pain~ we are the ones who face it each day, and I give thanks to knowing HE is beside me!
Bless you for these loving words Judi. I am honored by your comments.
Martha