Wednesday, October 17, 2012

What would my life be without Pain?

My Wish List comes tumbling out~~ "I want a Leg that isn't Numb,  a butt that doesn't burn like Hot Charcoal on a barbeque pit, a Foot that doesn't feel like its been to the Dentist office, I want the sensation of my Leg feeling like its tangled forever in the grip of a Massive Rubber Band to go away and Never Come back Again!"  

Pain pulled me from sleep at 3:30am~~ I walked quietly around the bed, being careful to not disturb my husband who sleeps Peacefully~~ and it hits me "I forgot to add Sleep to my list."  Time to make a hot cup of Tea, turn on the Heating Pad and face the day~~as I look up from my desk and see my fighting words~  Pain Won't Beat Me..........

I pray for all who suffer with Chronic Pain....Martha
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  1. Diane RonzinoOctober 17, 2012 at 6:44 AM

    I'm so, so sorry you had another bad night. Sending you a hug!

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    1. UnknownOctober 17, 2012 at 9:22 AM

      Thanks Diane~~
      Its my lifestyle now and I will keep fighting it, hoping along the way I am able to help another person who is in the trenches with Chronic Pain~my big job is keeping my attitude up!

      But I was raised to not give up and so on we go!!

      Has it gotten COLD in your area? And did you feel an Earthquake yesterday? We have been having cool fronts--a lovely 80 degrees!

      I had to get my Shawl out!!! No joke-we are having a beautiful early Fall!!!

      ((hugs))martha

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    2. Judi S. ColemanOctober 17, 2012 at 1:43 PM

      Your authenticity is so needed among believers today! Pain is awful...suffering without end is impossible to imagine...

      Sometimes I find it easy to cling to His garment; other times I feel He has slipped out of my hands and is walking away.

      Yet, He doesn't. It's me that's moved. And I always come back...finding Him there, providing what I need to go on. I know you will and that you do as well.

      We will NOT ever, ever give up. I will hold you up, as you hold me up!

      Judi

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    3. UnknownOctober 17, 2012 at 3:31 PM

      Judi-
      I am humbled by your words-at times like this-especially in the dark hours of night when everybody seems to be sleeping-I too feel very alone~~ realizing I am the one who let go of His hand, and all I need do is reach out--HE is always there for me.

      Its a time when I am reminded of the "Footprints in the Sand" writing and it hits me like a rock~~ as I know HE will never walk away from me. We are in this Together!! You are right dear Judi-we do keep coming back and will never give up.

      We will reach out and hold each other up-no matter how tough the times get! Please know I am there in spirit and love and word and prayers for you always!

      I am sure people might read my response and think "Well I don't feel the way she does-its like God left me for good!" I have been there-had the same feelings and trust me-there are moments in this wicked battle~~ when all I can do is sit in the dark, rocking back and forth, holding on for dear life and begging God
      "Please, Please help me with this Pain!" Its like a split second moves by me-but I can feel a brief respite of the Pain!

      Thats when I say "Thank you Lord. Thank you!" None of this will ever be easy~~~ but Life is worth the fight I put up against this miserable Pain.

      I know you understand my ramblings Judi. God bless you.
      Martha

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  2. Wise HeartedOctober 17, 2012 at 1:56 PM

    Martha...sleep is the one thing that would help you so much, so sorry it gets taken away from the pain. My heart aches for you because pain along with not getting enough sleep makes pain worst. It's a terrible circle. I just need to pray more for you, I must admit I have been a little self centered lately in my prayers. Not because we are going anything big, just a few little trials. Like you, I was not raised to quit and so we press on just as you do to another day, knowing what ever comes our way is being used to transform us into His image. It's just there are times I have said, ok Lord, enough transforming. Thank God for His new mercy every day...without it life would be hopeless. Blessings my wise hearted friend. Love Betty

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    1. UnknownOctober 17, 2012 at 6:28 PM

      Hi Betty!!
      Now first--there is NO way you could ever be self-centered my friend, just back up for a bit and take a good look at how much you & sweet Ace have done throughout your lives-all for others, simply wishing to teach about the amazing love of our Lord!

      ANY Trial we go through-lets be frank-its tough-we are human and things do have a way of catching up with us~~ for me its fighting
      needed Tears of Stress~~ I know a good cry is beneficial and healing~~but, well that is something I will have to address.

      Betty I am grateful for ONE prayer from you!!! I know HE hears each word of prayer you have spoken for me and the prayers help me! This last round of injections went a lot better~~~~ sadly
      when you have been locked in Sciatica for so many years--well all I can say is the dang stuff is more STUBBORN than me!!!

      How is Ace? Please do not let him over-do too much, I can't tell you how often he enters my thoughts and I want only the best for both of you.

      Hopefully I can get some sleep tonight. Been a very long day.

      all my ((love))Betty. martha

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