Dealing with Pain.............

Dealing with Pain-oh those three words sound delightful-but here I am and the Pain Game has slowly  turned, to let me know Pain is Dealing with Me! After so many years of being in Pain, my Coping Skills List is familiar-giving me a feeling of knowing which Skill I wish to pull from the shelf and throw at Pain, so I can find a bit of relief as my day goes on.

People who have known me for a long time are very aware of my fierce determination to keep going and never allow Pain to take all of me out of the picture-true facts, but those people don't get a "Behind the Scenes Peek" to see how rough my days can be. If they could be with me for just one day, something tells me they might walk away with deeper insight to living with Chronic Pain-and would be speaking silent words of prayer "Thank God I don't have to live like she does!"   I agree with them-Living with Pain on a daily basis is no Picnic-there is no way anyone can truly explain their own Pain, or how they cope with it each day and I hold all those who suffer with Pain up high-they are True Warriors, struggling to have Life in spite of Pain.

I have been going through a round of tough injections to silence the wicked Sciatic Burn running from my butt, down my leg, ending in the tips of my toes and there has been progress-but I do not fool myself and think the Burn is gone for good.  Think of your own body, being 12 feet up in a tree-then falling, hitting the ground Hard, as your buttocks take the full impact!  Nerves are damaged, Scar Tissue shows up fast, and the Burn begins!  The Sciatic Nerve is a Major part of the body-it took years for me to understand the importance of researching and learning everything about this Nerve, then using this knowledge as a tool for help in the battle of  Pain.

God is my best coping Tool-plain and simple!  I find myself uttering words of Prayer throughout my day, "Oh Lord, help me" and then its repeated over and over as I go about doing  simple things-and slowly I notice, "Wow, the Pain doesn't seem as bad now" and I am thankful for the brief moment of clarity.

The Best Pain Warriors in the World have bad days, weeks, months-yet we keep moving and refuse to allow Pain complete victory in our lives.  God is there for the asking and I find myself reaching out, taking time to "Talk and pray" realizing how human I am, knowing I have hit a low spot in the Pain Battle, and its okay to slow down-and let myself Rest in His Embrace.  

Right now-Pain is Dealing with Me- all I can do is take it one second at a time. As I close this post, my moment of Joy arrived, as I look out my window and see the beauty surrounding me here on our farm.  For all those suffering with Chronic Pain, I ask God to help you during the darkest moments-and if you don't mind,  please say One Prayer for me.  

God Bless you all.   Martha