Sometimes- "Real" Blessings are right in front of us..

Its day Two of Shot Recovery-and dear husband/aka-Nurse Rachet, noticed me sneaking out to my office and finally gave me the Thumbs Up-his way of saying "I know, you want to get back to your computer and Talk!  After all these years of marriage-we can read each other's thoughts before any words are spoken, I take that as a special treasure-although there are times when we look at each other and say
"Now how did you know what I was thinking?" 

For some reason, this Shot Procedure didn't go as easy- I have a Hard time waking up and believe me, the medical people do Not like this to happen!  I woke up in Recovery to see nurses around me, paying close attention to me-as it dawned on me, Oops-I didn't want to wake up!  Weird how our minds work-late Sunday night, a sense of worry settled over me about the  procedure-and I stopped in my tracks-knowing I needed to spend time in prayer, asking God to please watch over me, and I am very glad to be here, alive and feeling very sore but happy to know the Burn is getting quieter by the day!  AMEN!!!

Today we needed to buy some groceries- Dear Husband seemed okay about me going-now we don't shop like a lot of couples-he has one list, I have the other and we shop by ourselves.  He can move through the store ten times faster, and this gives me a chance to stroll around, being happy to just be out of the house and for some reason, my list is very short.  We keep in touch via cellphones, finally meeting up  at the checkout line. Here is where My Reminder decided to show up-suddenly it felt like all the energy I had in my body was draining Fast!  It doesn't take much to give dear Husband the clue that something is not right as I asked him to please find me a Sprite-I needed something Cold to drink and he managed to do it without taking his eyes off me!

Finally Martha realizes-"If I don't sit down fast, I will be laying here on the floor" Matt is shoving the keys to our vehicle toward me-knowing I was paying the price for having pushed myself too much!
My eyes were searching for a place to sit and quickly saw a chair I could make it to- told Matt he could find me there!  Relief hit his face as he watched me slump in the chair, drinking the cold Sprite, and wiping my brow, knowing I had gotten to the chair in the nick of time!

This was my First reminder of the "Real Blessing" being  in front of me-a husband who knows me better than I do-because he has been the Caregiver-walking right beside me, knowing the signs to look for-me asking for a cold drink, looking for a place to sit, being suddenly very silent, beads of sweat forming on my face and seeing me turning a shade of gray!  As I sat and watched him finish at the check-out line, I thought about this man, my husband, the Blessing he is in my life-him having to sacrifice so much as he watches over me-that thought makes me terribly sad and I feel guilty for having to put him through this, but here we are and as they say, We are in this together, for the long haul!

Little did I know, God had one more moment of awareness for me to witness-I am walking ahead of Matt, asking him if he needs some help to load the groceries in our vehicle-the offer was so Weak, I should have just stayed quiet but he gave me that loving look and said "Martha, you need to open the door, sit down, start the motor up and rest-I will be right there!"  He didn't have to say anything else as I slumped into the seat and knew my body was screaming at me for not respecting all I had been through.

Suddenly I notice an older woman, one hand is heavily bandaged, a neck brace is wrapped around her neck and yet she is trying to find the proper spot to put her empty basket away.  Matt notices and offers to put it up for her-I can't take my eyes from her as I see her look up at my dear husband and there is a look of true gratitude-as if she wanted to say "I don't get help like this and I am very thankful" but I also could see the emotions bubbling to the surface and all she could say was Thank you!

All this time, her husband is sitting in their vehicle, paying no attention to the needs of his wife-almost as if she wasn't there!  There is no attempt made by him to open the door for her as she only had one good hand, no words were spoken to her and she too slumped into her seat, physically drained, a look of deep sadness spread across her face.

Today  I thanked God for blessing my life with my husband-a man who cares, goes beyond his own needs, always looking after me first-making sure all is fine with me!  As we drove out of the parking lot, I touched his hand, telling him "Thank God I have you in my life!"  He gave me a loving smile and we drove away, as I realized all I had to do on this day was simply open my eyes to truly see the Real Blessings God has brought to me!

Pain can block our line of view-its easy to happen because we are so worn down from suffering-but if we will lift our heads just a tiny bit above the Pain-there is always a bit of True Joy for us to see!  Mine came today as I watched my husband reaching out to help a stranger, a person who needed a brief moment of awareness, knowing there is someone out there who cares.

God bless you all-I pray for you each day-if you find a chance to say a simple prayer for me, I know God will hear all the prayers and we will be the better for it.  Martha